An entry for therealljidol. Intersect week 2, topic 13: "I don't care about apathy." For my partner impoetry's contribution - and his beautiful, personal thoughts on a similar subject - click here, and see below for an author's note.My mother didn't like her then. Convinced that Angel was corrupting me, every phone call consisted of Mom telling me how I'd changed, how ( Read more... )

An entry for therealljidol. Intersect week, topic 12: "Sexual Ethics." For my partner talonkarrde88's contribution - and the other side of the story - click here, and see below for the author's notes.Every man in a 50-foot radius stops to look their fill as I enter. Who can blame them? I look like an honest-to-God pinup, all lush hair and killer curves and red lips - a ( Read more... )

An entry for therealljidol topic 11: "Run, don't walk." Part 1 of ??? - a murder mystery told by Detective Lily Reynolds.Evidence card 1 marked a three-inch carbon mark on the pavement. A mere 20 feet away, the sheet draped over an unmoving figure didn't quite cover a sensible pair of Cole-Haan pumps ( Read more... )

An entry for therealljidol topic 7: "One touch." A continuation of Lily and Ciaran's story. See part 1 here, part 2 here, and part 3 here.I knew a great deal about her long before we ever met. Not her name, of course - nor where she lived, what she was studying, or what she wanted to do with her life ( Read more... )

Still another lengthy entry for therealljidol topic 6: "Sunrise." Though with all the dialogue, it's not so long as it might look. A continuation of Lily and Ciaran's story. See part 1 here, and part 2 here.

I am following an insanely gorgeous, probably magical man I just met through the library.For several moments, Lily found that was the only thought she ( Read more... )

An entry for therealljidol topic 4: "Moments of devastating beauty"

She is two months old the first time I hold her in my arms. The one thing in life I thought I'd never have has finally arrived. My nearly 13-year-old self is overwhelmed with emotion in a way I never expected.

A sister. After all this time. And the word "half" doesn't even occur to me.

( See the moments )

A rather lengthy entry for therealljidol topic 2: "Uphill, both ways, barefoot"

( Journey with me )

An entry for therealljidol topic 1: "Empty gestures"

1984

"Wow, um...thanks for telling me, but..."

1986

"I really only see you..."

1988

"As a friend."

Boy-crazy from the age of four. Brave but shy. Too awkward to blossom into a swan at puberty. Did I ever really stand a chance?

( not as lengthy as it looks )

An entry for therealljidol topic 0: "Introduction"This thing is absolutely magnetic. For some reason, it doesn't matter what else is comfortable or available, or what else needs to be done, or where else I should be. I always find myself here for far longer than I intend ( Read more... )

I'll soon be jumping into the fray at community.livejournal.com/therealljidol/ thanks to gentle noodging from fwtallgirl . Now I just hope I have the presence of mind to do it well...